Can you keep a secret?
There’s something I want to tell you
But promise me you won’t tell anyone
My friends, acquaintances, even to my mum.
For some time now, my feelings were off-kilter
Yet I could still force a smile and a giggle.
But beneath those false responses
Lies a veneer of pain and misery.
My dear, you might have said that I’m just being sad and dramatic
But I have lost my will to fight to live, to fight for everything.
For some reasons that I can’t explain,
Tell me, are there any ways not to make my feelings be contained?
The things that I love are now the things I despise
Even the simplest things can make my temper rise
My poor self was shattered, strangled by the hands of ice
Without knowing why, I long for the day of my demise
Believe or not, I just don’t seem to find care
About the things happening around me everywhere
Afraid that I might be judged anyway
I kept my feelings and thoughts at bay.
So can you keep a secret?
This thought of mine I’d been bothered to share
My thoughts and feelings all laid bare
Before the eyes of darkness and death consume me with its stare.
Hello again! It’s been a few days since I last posted, and here I am taking advantage of my free time before work and schoolworks swallow me whole lol
Anyways, for the blabber part: some of my friends, even my mother have told me that there’s no reason for me to be depressed. But I have, and I’m observing myself last year. So this baby could also be ranked among my most personal compositions so far.
Nevertheless, I’m fighting my best to get to the light and not let the darkness swallow me. Anyways, happy reading!